Title: Complicate Me (The Good Ol’ Boys)
Author: Best Selling Author M. ROBINSON
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Release Day: September 14th
Cover Design: Rebecca Marie at The Final Wrap
It was complicated, it was also just the beginning.
A simple choice.
There is always that one moment in life where things could have been different. That one moment where you could have chosen a path that would lead you down a certain road.
A different life.
It was easier to pretend that we were still best friends, and that she was my girl and I was her boy.
Pretending was better than knowing the truth...
I. Ruined. Us.
I had her.
I lost her.
I love her.
All I did was complicate us.
My brown eyed girl sat on our blankets with her arms wrapped around her knees, hiding her face. The tiny frame that I adored so much shook uncontrollably, only heightening the deepest sobbing that escalated with each passing second. It was such an intimate moment, not to be shared with anyone, especially me. Alex didn’t cry. I watched her bawl for the first time in my life. I had never seen anyone cry like that before, and it shook me to my core, slicing me whole, and making me feel like I was dying. Carving a memory that I would take to my grave.
There was no going back…
No do overs.
What I witnessed tonight would be my purgatory; I would now close my eyes and forever see her falling apart in front of me. Shattering before my very own eyes and I found it hard to breathe.
Hard to move.
My feet were glued to the goddamn floor as she continued to weep, sob, bawl, violently sucking in air that wasn’t available. I accepted it all; each tear that fell from her face becoming pieces of me. Circulating through my veins and blood, it flowed endlessly, a river of her sadness and sorrow and of my broken promises. No beginning or ending to her cries, just an infinite current, flooding the hole where my heart should be. The shadow of her trembling petite body reflected off the walls, leaving a trail of regrets in its wake.
Growing up in a small town you overheard a lot of things. People talking, stories told, town gossip. You listened a lot. You learned a lot. Tourists, townies, friends, and especially family all shared wisdom and advice that you think you will never need.
Bunch of bullshit.
They say you have that one moment in life where things could have been different, that one moment that changes the course of your life or the direction you could have taken. That one moment that could forever change you and everything you wanted to be true, everything you wanted to believe.
One simple decision could alter your entire future.
My entire world.
I would forever remember this moment for the rest of my life. This is the moment that changed everything. This is the moment where I took another direction, another road that led me to my own demise.
My own regrets.
I should have walked in there. I should have apologized. I should have begged for her forgiveness. I should have promised that I would never hurt her again. I should have done whatever it took to make her look at me the way she had our entire lives.
But I didn’t…
I did none of those things…
Nothing was said between us.
I was a coward and couldn’t do it. I couldn’t see her like that. I couldn’t look into her eyes and know that I had hurt her. That I had disappointed her. That I ruined her love and lost her respect for me.
The boy who promised he would never hurt her.
The boy who swore he would always protect her.
The boy who vowed he would never let anything happen to her.
That same boy was me.
I was the reason she was bawling.
I was the reason she was hurt.
I was the reason she was broken.
She knew the truth. It had finally caught up to me… I shattered her illusion that I was hers. I ruined the one good thing I had in my life. The girl that owned my heart was bleeding out for me in a way that I had never seen before. The house was no longer our safe place.
I had brought my hurricane with me…
I couldn’t risk the possibility of losing her permanently if I walked in there and admitted my truths. She wouldn’t love me anymore, she wouldn’t look at me the same anymore, and she wouldn’t be mine anymore.
My brown eyed girl.
The girl that I had loved all of my life.
The same girl that I would love for the rest of my life.
I gave her the only comfort I could in her moment of despair. I turned around and left. I walked down the stairs and got into my truck. I turned the engine on and drove my sorry ass home. I took a shower and never once looked at myself in the mirror. I pretended that nothing changed. That I didn’t cause her pain, and that she didn’t know the truth. That I didn’t see her sobbing and that she wasn’t even bawling to begin with. That we were still just best friends, and that she was my girl and I was her boy.
My Half-Pint and her Bo.
It was better than knowing…
I ruined us.
" I would forever remember this moment for the rest of my life. This is the moment that changed everything. This is the moment where I took another direction, another road that
led me to my own demise.
My own regrets."
Knock knock...(who's there)...M...(M, who?)...M-azing!!! This book was completely M-AZING!!
Oh, how I wish I had a pack of Good O'l Boys to love and protect me unconditionally! This book is off the charts amazing. M really outdid herself with this one. It is completely different from her other books, which are more dark, raw, and gritty. I was a little apprehensive at first, that she went to the contemporary realm, mostly because she so successfully achieved a high level of captivating emotion through her darker books. I was quickly proven wrong...the level of emotion that M drew from me right from the beginning was wonderfully consuming, and frankly shocked me to the core. I couldn't put this book down. The characters were incredible and Alex was so relatable. I was so her growing up, running around the neighborhood with my brother and his friends. The battle that both Alex and Lucas fought against was frustrating to no end, yet entirely consuming. It made me scream, cry, and kneel down and pray to the book Gods for a rainbow to come after their seemingly never ending turbulent storm!!!
"Our emotions were running wild, trying to accept the bond our hearts will forever have. We laid our love out for each other years ago...I fought a battle I knew I could never win."
This story really blew me away. Unlike most small town childhood love stories, this one starts right from the beginning. We don't just get shot back in time through flashbacks here and there to merely get glimpses of how their love started as kids, we get to experience EVERY single heartbreaking and heart touching moment they shared since they were just little kids running around on the beach. The connection that Alex and Lucas shared was undeniably strong, but complicated at the same time. So many different factors played out that seemed to wreck havoc on their hopeful HEA. Just when you thought, "okay, this is it...this is their moment...FINALLY!!!", you get your hope-filled heart ripped out and handed back to you in tiny mutilated pieces.
"I shattered her illusion that I was hers. I ruined the one good thing that I had in my life. The girl that owned my heart was bleeding out in a way that I had never seen before."
My emotions changed erratically from chapter to chapter throughout this whole book. I was shattered, then rage-fully angry, followed by a few tissue-grabbing moments (well, maybe more than a few...hey I got to keep my street cred intact). One thing that was constant throughout though, was the unquestionable chemistry they shared. I could literally feel the sexual tension jumping out from the pages...and it was fiery hot. The fact that they kept the back-and-forth-suppressed-thing going on for so long, just increased the intensity to panty-scorching levels! I was quite possibly going to die from lusty anticipation. It became imperative to my entire existence, that they "Marvin Gay and get it on" and live happily ever after dammit!
"Are you fucking joking? A child? You think I see you as a child? Jesus Christ, Alex, fucking touch my cock and I'll prove to you that I don't see you as a child."
I got everything I wanted in a romance book and so much more, all wrapped up in fantastic characters and a truly compelling storyline. Lucas was such an aggravatingly hot specimen that I couldn't help fall in love with, even though I tried my damnedest to keep my feelings detached (in order to help my aching heart), it was a half-assed attempt at best...Game Ovaries!! The writing was so well done, it had my hooked and addicted right from the prologue. M not only nailed the childhood sweetheart love story, but was able to layer in just the right amount of heart clenching moments and unwavering-soul-penetrating passion to elevate it to a whole other level! Bravo M...tip of my imaginary hat to you. The secondary characters were just as enthralling, and I can't wait to get my greedy book junkie hands on the next book in this unbelievable series. This is most definitely a must read...go get your one click on!!
"I allowed my hand to linger for a few moments, wanting to remember the feel of him against my hand as his heart beat rapidly, mirroring mine. They had always been in sync with one another; time, regrets, lies, mistakes, misunderstandings, hadn't made it any less true."
5 out of 5 - I Want a Good Ol' Boy, Heart Squeezing, Passion-Filled Stars!!!
Author Low Down:
Best Selling Author M. Robinson loves to read. She favors anything that has angst, romance, triangles, cheating, love, and of course sex! She has been reading since the Babysitters Club and R.L. Stein.
She was born in New Jersey but was raised in Tampa Fl. She is currently pursuing her Ph.D in psychology, with two years left.
She is married to an amazing man who she loves to pieces. They have two German Shepherd mixes and a Tabby cat.